Made with film. Not Photoshopped! My lovely wife, this is.
Our nature is one of duality. We constantly go in different directions. Which way is the right way? Which way is the wrong way? A constant struggle of ideologies. Forever a cycle of fight and flight.
There are those that would argue. Spit out words in defense of some other, more ideal thought. Yet, the evidence of our nature is blatantly apparent. From our politics to art. We cannot seem to decide on any one thing. For if we did, we might actually succeed at something…anything.
Because of this nature, even I who am more focused than most, find myself drifting in and out of various projects by the day, the moment, even by the second sometimes.
Fear not, I may drift but never completely steer off of the road. The photography page is still in my sights.
The words are always ready now. The flow has returned. Please take the time to like, subscribe, and share, if you like my content.
When you are young, having nowhere to go can be quite magical indeed. However, at some point it becomes less magical and more scary.
Yesterday, we sold our RV, our home. We sold it for payments. Yet, we have no lease secured elsewhere. Odds are we could end up on the streets as much as actually getting another place to stay.
If you think about the fact that, so many things in life either require a firm belief in luck or God, it is a bit scary. Wouldn’t it be nice to know we actually had control over anything? How much do we really have control over?
At any moment, right now even, an airplane could crash through your roof and destroy you and everything you spent your time trying to build. This just demonstrates that the idea we control anything is absurd. It is just an illusion.
Just like everything really. According to current science everything we see is made from energy, sound, vibration. Nothing is tangible! Yet, it all appears to be.
For me, knowing what I know, the answer is easy. Place all my faith that God will take care of those things which I cannot.
For me, that is where the real magic lies. Enjoy your day!!!
That is today. Definitely the cold part. A temperature of 19 degrees Celsius it is right now. I highly doubt anyone would argue that it is cold. It’s “shove head into oven and turn oven on time”, for sure.
But I am not going to do that. Instead I am going to try to forget exactly how frickin’ cold it gets in a RV at winter. I am going to distract myself by typing to you. Could you at least seem a little more interested? Please!
It is because of this kinda cold that led to my last hospital visit. Seems the cold dries out my sinuses and that leads to pain in my nasal passages and a feeling of congestion in my ears. Basically, I feel like I am coming down with a cold. Whether this is actually the case is irrelevant. It does become true eventually.
This is one of the reasons for the decision we have made to seek another place of residence. If the place you live no longer provides a safe environment to live, then moving becomes priority. We all must have a safe place to live. The IS the top priority on any human’s list of needs.
Sadly, it seems, my little RV home no longer provides a safe haven. Anyone got room for a slightly used writer, photographer, singer, and amusing voice maker?
Ok, I admit I am bit more than slightly used but I have been maintained reasonably well. I come with all kinds of added benefits. I can and often do produce fairly robust and intelligent conversation. I clean up after myself(mostly), I am house trained, and lastly, I can cook if given the right ingredients. Please use the contact page if any of this strikes your fancy.
While I have been enduring the cold, I edited a few recently snapped photos. I shall share them now.
A Polaroid which my wife claims is out of focus and I claim is in focus. The problem with Polaroids if that often, both of those statements are indeed true.I went for a bit of a painting like image here.
While my wife yet sleeps, the cold remains in the forefront of my thoughts, but I am thankful. I still have my invisible audience to type at. You distract me from the cold and the loneliness, if only, but for a minute. Enjoy your day!
That road, they call life, surely is long and winding. Especially the winding part. You feel fine one day and the next you are so sick you have to visit the Hospital Emergency room twice in two days.
This was part of my last week. It is official, I now am in debt for the rest of this lifetime and probably part of the next. But, the Cytokine storm has passed. I live on, for my suffering and my happiness are not ended.
The walk along the path is clear as it ever was. After the hospital visits, there were days of recovery, some days of insanity as my body tried to reset itself over and over again. Yet, when it was done, I gained a few new insights and was blessed with my wife’s presence for this entire week.
We have made a few decisions that should benefit our lives if everything works out and, most importantly, we were able to spend some time in the great outdoors. That is where the above photo came from and to think it almost was never made.
After deciding my neuropathy was becoming overbearing, we headed back to the car and climbed in. While sorting our things out, I happened to look up and notice the above scene. I saw it and at once knew this was a great composition. With the leading lines of the cloudscape and the sidewalk…heck the scene was half framed for me.
I opened the car door and stepped out. While rolling down the window, I pulled out my cell phone. Propping my elbows on the car window frame, I proceeded to snap a photo and much to my surprise, no photo sound came forth. It was very bright out and hard to see the screen. I was determined to get this shot and tried again. Nope! Nothing! I turned around and slipped the IPhone back into the car, away from the bright sunlight. Then I found the problem.
The IPhone had somehow been moved into video mode.
I corrected this issue and then proceeded to take a number of photos from different angles and distances. The above photo is the end result of all that and light Snapseed editing.
Maybe I will make a limited print of it one day. I guess that in another of those windings that will come when life has led me further down that long road.
I hope you found some value in this post. If you did, please like and share! Lastly, be safe and have a great day!
Oftentimes the internet acts as a wall. Hiding behind it the real things. The secret of creation. A spell of imagination and technology, Interwoven with tears of madness. For me, at least, this is true. But you might think “Whatever do you mean, Axe?” Let me give you an example.
Hidden
Like the above photo, many things are going on that you can’t see. You could not see, here at least, that I wrote a closing post for my photography blog and have abandoned it. It was not gaining traction and I felt that the premise of its existence was not sufficient to keep it alive.
I am always either developing photos, and coming up with new ideas for photography. I am writing little poems which likely will never be published in the interim, and lastly, I have been using spare time to look for another portfolio host of my photos. After encountering issues logging in to the site, I discovered this was common and that the company has many BBB complaints. I have decided to at least create a small portfolio page here. I believe this adds much more value, to my current readers, since a lot of them discovered this site because of images.
Waiting
All of these things are being done in hiding. All while I was making the posts about 17 yrs. And 59 years(my birthday post). All of these things have to remain hidden until the time is right, simply because there is not time enough to post about the many things I have in motion.
Behind all of this is my health battles and the never ending struggle to improve. Hey, my life is an onion, lol! Who else has an onion life? I am sure many do and just don’t bother to say things are hidden.
Dreaming
Maybe I am dreaming that people care. Maybe I just care too much? I don’t know! I do know that I want readers to know, while they are waiting, that many things are still left to do here and I am not going anywhere.
As always, thank you for reading and know that your comments are always welcome. I truly do appreciate the time people spend here.
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